Friday, November 2, 2012

Before the semester starts

Year III. Sem II. That's where I will be a few days from now. And that's how long this blog has lasted. I know I haven't been the most consistent, OC, and gramatically correct law student-blogger out there, and I have mentioned absolutely nothing on my law school experiences when I should have. But I have to give myself a pat on the back--this has been thus far my longest running blog that I haven't deleted, including the ones with my (real) name on it.

The reason for my relative lack of blog posts is not that things have gone by so fast. They have not! I can't remember ever going through a long-drawn, gruesome, torturous ordeal worse than law school. Some people hate it, very few love it, but I think everyone who's gone through--and is going through--law school can agree that it is anything but easy.

I can't describe it, really. The experience is one for the books, but I can't quite describe it fully without potentially exaggerating or understating exactly how it is. But what I know is, coming in, I didn't really have any idea what to expect. And when I had an inkling of what it's gonna be like for the first few weeks I was in it, I put myself under the insane belief that I could skate through with digests, bar tips, and other shortcuts. Thankfully, I learned early on that, as in most obstacles in life, there really were no shortcuts. You just have to go through with it. Of course there's always the option of joining a fraternity or asking a friend to help you out in the middle of a bloody recitation, but when it comes right down to it, you have to beat yourself at your own game.

I sound freakishly sentimental when I'm not even through with it yet! I guess what I want to point out is that I've come to my full senses, five semesters too late, and I'm ready to finally bring it.

I mean, I should be. There's nothing more I want right now than to finish law school, get my law degree, and find out what the future holds for me. I don't really have a clear picture in mind as to what I want to do, which is why I admire my boyfriend. He had everything figured out during med school, knowing what specialization he wanted to take and where he wanted to go. And now that he's finally a doctor in residency, he's making it happen. And it's happening right before my eyes!

I guess that's the kind of realization you have during law/med school, and dammit, it's the realization I want to have while I am still in it!  More than anything, really, I'm just happy that my perspective has changed.

I will get to the finish line, and I will get there before others do.

8 comments:

  1. i'd like to shift perspectives. the way i'm currently seeing myself at my career is very depressing.

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    1. What's your career path at the moment? Best of luck to you. If there's anything I learned, it's that things aren't as bad as they seem.

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  2. Honestly, very few people have a clear cognition of what they plan to achieve (and how to do so) even up to undergraduate years. That's why we have youth. It affords to us to test the waters, and continually refine our goals. Better have your missteps in your youth, than later on in life.

    Off-topic, winner ang partner mo. Did he take the IntarMed?

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    1. Back in undergrad, I knew I wanted to get into law for whatever reason, so my plan then was even clearer than it currently is now that I am actually in law school.

      And no, he didn't. Haha.

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  3. Hi Arwind! I feel you. I also am a law student and constantly beset with ambivalence. The temptation to give up always creepily seeps in, yet, I am convinced that I shall carry on and this, too, shall pass. Lucky you: you're a full-time student. My predicament even sounds startling: I have a full-time job, a full-load in law school and a grade to maintain for my scholarship not to sever. But I digressed. I just hope that you shall be constantly inspired of the very reason why you enrolled in the first place. Trust me, once you get fixation, you just have to believe that it can be done.

    I just recently discovered your blog. I shall be checking it more often methinks knowing that we share the same predicament (read: I have a boyfriend).

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    1. Hello! It would've been great if you left a link, a codename or anything I could address you by :) And weeell, at this point, I don't think giving up is an option any longer. What year are you in?

      And sure, drop by as often as you'd like. And it's good to know that we have the same "predicament"--sometimes, it's a happy problem. hehe.

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    2. Heya! My apologies for the late reply. Been extremely busy with work, school, and boyfriend obligations. Haha. I was about to give you my blog's link but I am too self-effacing and rightly humbled by your wisdom. I am just on my first year but the point of surrender is something I steer clear of as I am not getting any younger. Quite a tall order for someone with multiple obligations but I shall carry on. I am proposing a friendly disposition from you so I could ask for your wisdom on my law school journey. Shall us? By the way, boyfriend is a beautiful distraction. xoxo, Thorn

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  4. I'm glad you're happy now.

    Remember me and my signature smiley?? ^_^

    -MA

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